After eighteen long years and the many twists and turns of this life I finally found my way back home to Maui. When the airplane’s door opened and I smelled the fresh island air, for the first time in nearly two decades, I was overwhelmed with emotion. It was surreal to be in this place again. A home I had become convinced years earlier was lost to me forever, and now I was back. The joy I felt and still feel has only ever been surpassed by the births of my children.
I am so grateful that my path has led me here and for all the people who helped me along the way. The ones who believed in me, of course, but to a greater extent I am grateful to those who doubted me. I don’t intend that in a snide or resentful way, nor do I believe the naysayers themselves intended any ill will. That doubt, for me, was a seed. A seed that allowed courage and determination to grow within me so that I may follow my true path. Reinvention of a life. It’s not an easy thing to do, and it’s scary as hell. Not only because of the proverbial leaps of faith that one must take on such a journey, but because I also had to take those leaps for my children. They, in my eyes, are and will forever be the most courageous people I have the privilege of learning from.
Pablo Coelho, brilliant author of The Alchemist, wrote “There is one great truth on this planet: whoever you are, or whatever it is that you do, when you really want something, it’s because that desire originated in the soul of the universe. It’s your mission on earth. When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”
I, now more than ever, find this to not only be inspirational but absolute in substance. While in the process of trying to make this enormous change with my three children I focused my energy on Maui. I dedicated meditations to my journey. Maybe that makes me a hippie. All I know is it worked.
I will also forever be in awe of my Mother who not only found it in herself, at nearly 60 years old, to join me on this peregrination, but also raised me to recognize such an opportunity and embrace it. What a wonderful legacy.
So many people throughout history and today have done and are doing things that I admire greatly. I began to wonder if my aspirations, my dreams were to remain just that. No fear I had ever experienced could compare to the fear that that possibility evoked in me. How incredible it feels to take that first big step towards following the path that was meant for me.
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